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| so i absolutely LOVE how the whole world in falling in love with that song.. i think its stupid when i hear "straight" girls singing it.. well actually i don't care that the world likes that song, cause its pretty much amazing, but i thinks its pretty hilarious when i hear straight girls singing it.. lmao it makes me laugh so hard.. even tho i know its just a song, and katy perry, who sings it isn't gay, its still funny to hear certain people singing it.. ahahhahahahhaa! okay. so this is going to be really random cause i'm bored and i feel like blogging.
so, schools out in three days! can you say YAAYY! lmao. wow i still cannot believe how fast this year went.. i mean i can still remember what happened at the beginning of the year, and i usually don't by the end of school.. its weird. everyone keeps telling us that next year will go by even faster.. but i don't really care how fast next year goes, 'cause i'm gonna be graduating, then getting the hell out of ohio! and i want that to happen ASAP! you know, i was always so depressed when i would think about graduating high school, mostly because i had no idea what i was going to do. but ive got most of it all figured out now. wooooooooooohooooooooooooooo!! 
so life was kinda shitty for awhile, then i had to tell my counselor things and it got worse, but now it's actually getting better. like i seriously, don't know when i've ever been this happy. i still have things to work on, like a lot of things. but it seems like this time i'm going to stop all the bad stuff for good. i'm actually like, keeping the promises ive made and staying sober.[well drug-free anyway.]  even though, this is pretty much the beginning of the whole thing.. i guess i just have a positive attitude this time. but thats how this always goes; i decide to be smart and tell my counselor about stuff, then they all try to help me with it. at first i always have a positive attitude about it, saying that i'll stay sober and blahblahblah. but then something happens, and after being without it for so long, i give in and do it again.. then i just keep lying to her about it, and everything just gets worse, while everyone thinks its getting better.. i guess i just can't be honest for long.. or maybe its because i am just an addict?.. and well if you don't know how they roll, i'll tell you what my counselor told me about 'em; they're good at lying, and making people believe that they're okay, when they're really not.. so yeah, that fits pretty well to my description. blah. whatever. i'm just going to prove them all wrong. i'm not going to fall back anymore, well atleast i'm going to try harder than i used to.. and this time, i have more motivation.. i mean, now that pretty much everyone in my fam knows, they're all either lecturing or giving me the guilt trip over it. and each of them, have made me cry. so that makes me want to get better, just so i know that they'll all be proud of me. i hate that ive let them down.. ive just always hated being a letdown, to anyone. and i would hate to have to live with that thought, even tho i do. but that doesn't bother me as much as it would if it were my family being disappointed in me..
summer vacation starts soon, i cant wait anymore. lol i don't have any really big plans or anything this year, which kinda sucks, but i'm supposed to keep busy so i'm not thinking about using or anything. so yeah, thats exactly what i'm going to try to do. next week, my mom and i are going down to KY for my cousins wedding. i've been thinking about staying down there for a couple weeks to spend some time with my dad. after i graduate, i'm hoping to move asap. so that means i probably wont get to spend any time with him before i move all the way across the states. its not like we're that close, but i'd feel bad, and i'm trying to include him in my life. so there. maybe this'll work.. who knows?
also, i plan to paint my room, cause my mom says i need to cover up all of the "graffiti" on my walls. lol so yeah, after i paint over those memories, curtis said he will help me clean the downstairs bedroom and move me in there. whoo! that would be so cool. that room is so much bigger and it'd be funner for me cause then i wouldnt have to be crammed up in a little room anymore. yay! i hope she lets me. =]
well i cannot believe that tila kicked off lisa! i thought they were like the best together. especially out of who's there now. ew i hate that douche bag from jersey. he's so annoying, how can she stand him!? and that stupid ugly blond, and that brittany girl is also annoying as fuck. ugh. gah. and george was so sweet, she's such a whore! i swear this show is so stupid. it makes me mad. guh i didn't even want to watch it after what she did to danny first season. i didn't even like danny that much, but i felt so bad that i cried! seriously, i think all around tila tequila is a really fake person. [well duh, shes on tv. lol] but still. it bugs me. when i get out of here, i'm gonna have my own show, where i look for love, and it'll be real. lmao. wow.. i'm tired, im gonna go to bed. g'night. ahahahaa!
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| well, i have no idea where to begin. i feel like i haven't blogged in over a year. guess i just didn't feel like it. idontreallyknow? but anyways...
whats new with me? hmmmm.. well one of my grandmothers passed away on friday. yeahhh.. then to have to go to prom the next day, was so much fun.. its just kinda hitting me now though.. its weird. i didn't get to see or hear from her in so long, then i hear that she has cancer again and that its really bad this time. it sucks. life doesn't make any sense. i mean, she was such a nice person, always there if you needed her, she was so funny and lovable, and joyful; she was always so happy to be alive... why do these things happen to people who don't deserve it?? it just isn't fair. i miss her.. i didn't even get to say goodbye.. and i feel bad for all those times when i was a brat to her.. you just think that your family will be around forever, but then you realize they wont be.. so don't take them for granted.. i'm sorry Grandma Dawn. iloveyou and imissyou.  R.I.P.
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Dawn H. Dawn H. Lewis, age 76, of Walbridge, OH, passed away on Friday,
May 2, 2008, at home surrounded by her loving family. Dawn was born on
August 7, 1931, in New York, NY to Howard and Edna "Peg" (Creager)
Conklin. She was employed as an assistant cafeteria manager for the
Oregon Board of Education for 17 years, retiring in 1994. She also
worked for Ohio Bell as a long distance telephone operator from 1950 to
1956. She was a member of the VFW Walbridge Post 9963 Auxiliary, and
the Rossford Eagles Aerie 2322 Auxiliary. A loving wife, mother,
grandmother, great- grandmother, and homemaker, Dawn was known for her
infectious laugh and terrific sense of humor. She loved life, and
always had a cheerful and optimistic attitude. Dawn's survivors include
her children, Hildred "Hildi" (Daniel) Nachtrab of Holland, OH, Daniel
(Barbara) Taylor of Fairview Park, OH, and Victoria "Vicki" Taylor of
Findlay, OH; stepchildren, Jack Taylor of Bedford, KY, and Brenda
Shiley of Helena, OH; brother, Robert (Von) Rado of Lambertville;
grandchildren; great-grandchildren and countless friends and neighbors
she loved like her own family. In addition to her father, Howard;
mother, Peg and stepfather, Leo Rado, she was preceded in death by her
husbands, Forest Taylor and James Lewis. Family and friends may visit
on Monday from 2-8 p.m. in the Sujkowski Funeral Home Northpointe,
114-128 East Alexis Rd. Funeral Services will be Tuesday at 11 a.m. in
the funeral home. It was always Dawn's wish that rather than send
flowers to the funeral home, they would be sent in her memory to
someone you love. And smile today at someone you don't know. Please
view and offer online condolences at www.sujkowski.com |
im not in the mood to type anymore.
goodnight
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You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.
We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?
I used to reach for you when
I got lost along the way.
I used to listen.
You always had just the right thing to say.
I used to follow you.
Never really cared where we would go,
Fast or slow, to anywhere at all.
We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?
I look around me,
And I want you to be there
'Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.
It's empty, and you're sad
'Cause you miss the love that we had.
You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around,
The only one around.
We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be? Yeah.
To how it used to be.
To how it used to be, yeah.
To how it used to be.
To how it used to be. | | |
| ive got a new girrrllfriennddd.  her name is savannah kiddey. shes the best.  goodbye. | | |
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